Missing Things.....

I know that God is way greater than anything that I am going through and that He has overcome the world and because of that I can to.....
The older I get the more I realized how much I miss things. I miss my girls being babies and totally dependant on me for everything. I miss high school and being able to be silly and still being dependant on someone for everything. Don't get me wrong I LOVE MY LIFE. I love everything that God has blessed me with.
Right now in my life I miss something else more than anything that I ever thought was possible. I miss my sister. I miss talking to her, seeing her, our fights, our goofyness, I miss my sister so much that it hurts..physically and mentally. I never thought that my life would not include her and it sucks. I am angry at her for what she has done to her children. They love her so much and she doesn't even care. I am angry with her because my kids won't be able to get to know who she is. I am angry with her because I have to explain to my four year old daughter why she can't talk to or be around her Aunt Emmy. I am angry with her because I see what she puts my parents through and it makes me sick. I am angry with her because of how my heart feels. But I will forgive all these things just to have her back. I need her in my life. I want her in my life. I just want her back. I need her back. I pray for everyday and I know thats all I can do. I know that this is God's plan for us now, I don't understand it, I dont like it, but I know that HIS WILL WILL BE DONE. Sorry for the bummer. I am just having a moment. I love all of you and pleeeeeaaaase pray for my sister for God to use whatever possible to change her life around. Love you all.

My Wonderful, Amazing, God Loving, Husband

Johnny and I on vacation this past July...I love this man!!!!


Most of my blogs have been about my kids, but I am doing this one in honor of the man of life, my husband. I know without a doubt in my mind that when God formed this wonderful being 28 1/2 years ago he was thinking about me. Johnny is such a blessing in my life. We have not had the perfect marriage; there have been some major bumps in our path, but they have brought us closer together. These moments have also made him into our spiritual leader of our family that he is.
Last October Johnny and I made a very special trip together. We went on a short mission trip to Haiti. That trip totally changed my husband's life forever. He has always been a giving man, but this trip totally made my husband have a servers heart. He was/is ready to sell everything here and move there to be full time missionaries. I am the one that is dragging my feet on this. Not sure that I feel that God is calling us there...anyway...When we left Johnny gave everything that was need to make it home to the people there. It's so amazing to see him give the shirt off his back to a Haitian person that is that was half his size. Anyways, yesterday at church we were asked to suffer a little bit and leave our shoes at church. Walk home bare foot and give our shoes to people who have possibly never had shoes ever. I whole heartedly gave my shoes...I looked at my husband and knew that he had on his new Nike tennis shoes that we have recently gotten to replace the ones that were given to a Haitian kid. I asked him if he was giving his NEW NIKE SHOES, his response: "Absolutely, Why would I not". I love this man. I just pray to God that one day I have a givers heart like his. Giving, Giving, and more giving and expect nothing in return.
I thank God everyday for this man...I love him...I love him...I love him.

Preschool: A huge SUCCESS!!!!

Well the first day of preschool went off without a hitch. I only got teary eyed once. She was so cute. She was dressed (with her backpack on) and ready to go at 7:30. She asked to go then we held her off until 8 took Addyson to the sitter and we were still the first ones there. She was so excited. She talked about preschool the whole rest of the day. She said one of the cutest things ever. Don't want to post in on here because it includes another child so ask me and I will tell ya. I still get teary eyed every time I tell the story. I hope that this find everyone having a great short work week. Have a great day. Love ya.


Daddy, Hayleigh, and Addyson(being Addyson I might add). Love these three.



Hayleigh on our front porch before school.


Hayleigh in front of her locker.


Addyson kept saying, "I preschool tooo".


Hayleigh and Kayton after the first day.

Preschool Here We Come!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's finally here. The day that Hayleigh has been waiting months for and the day that I have been dreading.....The first day of preschool. It's not that I don't want her to go or worry about her, but it's just that I don't want her to grow up so fast. I want her to be my baby forever. I want to rock her all the time and baby her as long as possible. I tried to rock her the everyday and she told me to quit being silly. Sniff sniff my little one is all grown up. Now Addy is begging to go to preschool too. It seems like just yesterday they were born. Now they both want to grow up so fast. Well enough of my sob stories. I will post again tomorrow and show some pics of her first day. She already has her outfit picked out ready to go. Hope you all had a great Labor Day Weekend. Love ya all.

Potty Training 101

Potty training is going well. Number 1 is a whole easier than number 2. M&M's is good reward for Addy as long as I give her a llellow one(yellow). She is starting to recognize her colors more and more everyday. We are starting to plan Hayleigh's B-day party. Back by popular demand is the popular jumpy party. Hayleigh has said she wanted one again since her last party. This year will be fun because we can invite all her preschool friends. So I will keep you posted on how that goes. I hope that all is well with everyone and we are doing great. Love ya all. Amy

The trying Times of Potty Training

Potty training Addyson is going great. Hayleigh pretty much trained herself. She woke up one morning went potty and has had very few accidents since. Addyson is not that easy, but I have had a couple of other moms tell me that I am lucky on how easy Addyson is too. We started doing this on Monday. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday were not so good. Went through every pair of panties that we owned in those days. Thursday and Friday she stayed dry all day long. No accidents and used the potty all day. Yesterday we went to McCormicks Creek for the day, so she wore a pull-up all day. She went potty a couple of times, but the pull-up was wet. Today is another dry day. One accident she went # 1 and 2 in the potty I thought she was done but she wasnt done and finished #2 in her pants. I love my kids and I love being mom. This time is soooo fun. Hayleigh is having fun helping.
Addy's verbal skills are growing everyday. The things that she says absolutly amazes me. Hayleigh starts preschool on September 8. I am extremely emotional about this. She is soooo excited can't wait to learn all kinds of new stuff. I am going to so emotional when we take her. I love being a mom, but not liking them growing up. I really want my kids to stay babies forever. I know that they won't but wishing they would. I thank God everyday for both of my blessings that he has trusted me with. I love my kiddos.

A lot of Changes in the Cummins Family

It's once again been a while since I have blogged. There are a lot of changes going on in our household. We have started potty training Addyson. Today is day 2. Today was better.....I think. Hayleigh is getting ready to start preschool. She is sooooo excited. We have already purchased her backpack and the school gets the school supplies. It is crazy how fast your kids grow up. Addyson counts better in spanish than she does in english. Her pediatrician cracked up about this on her two year well baby check-up. The kids are getting along well until they have to share toys or anything. Addyson is a little Hayleigh. She copies everything that Hayleigh does. I hope this blog finds everyone doing well.
I want to thank everyone for all their prayers during the last couple of months. We have definetly felt them. Life is getting better and easier. I can see the kids improving everyday. Especially Erin. She still has her moments, but on all she is moving past her mom and thats good. I still pray for my sister everyday for God to work is will in her life. My faith tells me that He will prevail and I stand strong on that. Love ya all, Amy